M.

2011-12-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

You are the tide, and we all know you can never stay.

2011-10-23T23:45:00.002+08:00

告诉自己要冷静 却又无法不想你

我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己

2011-09-29T19:52:00.000+08:00

YES YES NOW I AM PISSED.

2011-08-26T21:55:00.003+08:00

this isn't what i want in life

as least

in my life

2011-08-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

“Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win”

- William Shakespeare

2011-08-15T21:25:00.001+08:00

“Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win”

- William Shakespeare

2011-08-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

i miss you, more than you know.

2011-08-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

i miss you.

2011-07-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday!

2011-06-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

remember, who you are.

2011-06-04T23:23:00.001+08:00

2011-06-04T15:11:00.001+08:00

It's my incapability. To not have you. Whole.

2011-06-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

i want you.

2011-05-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW>

TELL ME IT'S GONNA BE EGGCITING.

my days.

2011-05-16T19:43:00.002+08:00

my days, not in chronological order.

2011-05-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

I am a warped piece of art,

which you either love or hate.

2011-05-14T19:37:00.000+08:00

a bad day for emotions.

The Old Man and The Sea

2011-05-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

' Everyday is a new day. It is better to be lucky. But I rather be exact. When luck comes you are ready.'

- The Old Man and The Sea

2011-05-09T22:17:00.001+08:00

fragments/

2011-05-04T12:14:00.001+08:00

I have the best of the best. :)

menmeng

2011-04-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

i adore you.

J.E

2011-04-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

' Yet it will be your duty to bear it, if you could not avoid it: it is weak and silly to say you cannot bear what it is your fate to be required to bear.'

2011-04-02T17:39:00.000+08:00

menmeng! hahahahaa

2011-04-02T02:50:00.001+08:00

i need someone, who won't give up on me.

oh my castle ring

2011-04-02T01:54:00.001+08:00

everything looks nicer with frame:>

2011-04-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

i feel fat.

2011-03-30T19:05:00.001+08:00

this is how you feel.

this is how i feel.

the future is bleak, and we gonna be bold.

2011-03-30T03:47:00.001+08:00

i'm unworthy. just leave me for a better. i can't even control my sanity.

2011-03-30T03:01:00.001+08:00

Jane Eyre

2011-03-29T22:27:00.008+08:00

in the mood for a romance novel, so i dug out my jane eyre.

it's been so long that the story's already washed out in my memory.

so i guess it's time to reminisce.

2011-03-29T13:45:00.002+08:00

fun fun on a monday noon.

OH CAN I PLEASE HAVE THIS

2011-03-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

oh please please please let me find these with affordable price

>.<

2011-03-23T18:00:00.001+08:00

I am not cheap, so is my labour.

2011-03-23T00:40:00.002+08:00

you wait your wait isn't coming

2011-03-22T02:53:00.004+08:00

Finally FYP is over. But there is still no sense of freedom, not yet, it almost seems like never. As long as I am still the same person as today, I don't deserve freedom itself.

And still, sometimes I go to bed earnestly wishing the morning will never arrive, truly wish to just fall into the deep vortex of dream. I am avoiding, I am being afraid, timid, a coward. Postponing every decision I have to make, hoping someday it will decide on its' own. But nothing is that easy, it's about me, so it's my call.

It's a shame.

The true answer in my heart can't match with my heart itself.

Tell me, someone, what to do.

I need a strong soul to guide me now.

2011-01-19T22:53:00.003+08:00

2011-01-15T16:34:00.002+08:00

i dunno what i will get myself into in the future.

i feel like an uncontrollable mental patient.

i need to be tied up during my fits.

if not i will only realize the damage after i regain conscious.

sorry..

2011-01-14T11:28:00.002+08:00

today seems like a better day

anticipating for tonight!

tea talk over tim sum with Tan Sharine!

2011-01-14T09:19:00.002+08:00

WOAH my mum weighs 54.5KG!!!

I realized i haven't yet gave myself a 2011 new year resolution.

probably 'cause they'll never work out for me.

and i'll never stick to it.

and also not to disappoint myself when they didn't happen.

but you know, what the heck.

just set one, as in i'm graduating in 3 months and my resolution can't go far from that.

so here it goes.

1) GRADUATE from TP

2) Opt for 5 art colleges

3) hmmm.. earn 1000 bucks

4) read many many many books.

2011-01-13T17:39:00.000+08:00

2011-01-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

in the wicked spur of moment,

guilt sprout up like a budding seed.

2011-01-12T19:03:00.001+08:00

CONFIDENCE!!!!:)

2010-12-12T02:23:00.000+08:00

我是小丑先生写给自己的一张卡片。

我不知到他是用怎样的心情写的，他总是把脸藏在一层层颜料后面，没人见过他真正的脸色。

一个风和日丽的下午，小丑先生来到宽阔的草原为我送行。

我，带着他的思念，像个诗人随风而去，他却在原地依依不舍地目送我离去。

在空中，我遇到好多黑白的信，他们一脸严肃地不削我一眼。被冷漠的我只好独自继续飞行。

不久，我遇到一些与我相同的卡片，我们互相礼貌地问候，然后一起前进。

一路上有他们的陪伴，我乐极了。

我们笑，聊，追，闹，表情十分丰富。

这让我想起小丑先生永不变地表情。。。

原来是因为他没有伙伴。

在路上，一些比较有经验地卡片教我如何下雨时躲雨，刮风时加速。

从他们身上我学到不少东西。

但是可能快乐是短暂地缘故，我们不久就各飞各的了。

我们挥手与对方告别，相信不久的将来即会再相聚。

孤零零的飞着。我于是安慰自己，有缘前历来相会，无缘对面不相识。

天空这么大，即使能交到10分钟的朋友已就不错了。

我接着飞。

在云层里，我巧遇一群过世的伟人。

我不知道他们的名字，但他们脸上都有这伟人无畏的眼神，在天上也如此。

离我最近的是一位印地安人，我胆怯地问道：

“你为什么在这呢？”

“ 因为我为我同胞的自由和领土而奋斗了一生。“

我不理解他所说的，但是我还是礼貌地感谢他的回答而继续上路。

我飞越了海洋

我飞越了一片森林

我飞到了一座城市

累了，我就在高楼大厦上歇息，孤独地与夜猫子作伴。

她似乎了解我的寂寞，只要我一伸手出去，她就会靠过来对我温柔地撒娇。

天空很大，但是也可以很孤单。

在这拥挤的城市里，是否大家都各自有陪伴呢

白天人行道上人山人海，大家都面无表情地赶路。

夜里街上空无一人，只有我在拼命地前进。

但是我不再感到孤单，因为我有小丑先生的思念和字迹在我背上，与我同行。

一想到白天那些面无表情的脸孔，我就为他们感到难过。

许多鸟儿看见，都可怜我的忙碌。

但也有些羡慕我地自由。。

原来自由是可以被笼子锁起来的。

这时想起那位印地安人先生所说地话，我不禁感到一阵感伤。

我看着沉睡地月亮，偷偷许下愿望

”希望大家以后能共享自由。。“

就这样暴风雨来临时，我们能勇敢地面对

要坚信不管风有多猛，夜有多黑，都会有座坚固无比地灯塔导引着我们。

所以，下雪了，我不再感到寒冷，

我想起温馨地圣诞节

想起小丑先生去年戴地圣诞帽子

天黑了

我想起太阳在另外一方照耀着自由女神。

孤独了就想起，我们其实都在同一片天空下

在某个角落一定有个和我一样地卡片带着思念在努力地往目的地飞着。

于是我继续飞

飞过高山

飞过河流

飞过陆地

飞过沙漠

在途中，

遇见了小女孩和她叫们们的狗

遇见了一只叫老虎的猫咪

遇见了一对牵手的恋人

遇见了一群拆不散的朋友

一天我终于飞到了一片熟悉的草原

看到一栋熟悉的房子。

在那窗户前是一张熟悉的脸。

我激动的在他面前降落，为这个旅程终于画上句号。

小丑先生看到我地归来落下兴奋地眼泪

热腾腾地眼泪簌簌而下，把他满脸颜料地脸洗得一干二净。

第一次我看清楚小丑先生得脸，

那是一张多么年轻得脸啊！

从此以后，小丑先生改名为约翰。

其实原来，

世界也可以很美好。

朋友，让你的卡片去流浪吧！

你总会在世界的一角

找到愿意懂你的人。

2010-12-10T21:01:00.001+08:00

2010-12-04T21:27:00.004+08:00

2010-12-04T20:09:00.005+08:00

I don't really know which part of my day should i write about.

the one i went movie with my still existing friends or those who are taking their leave and thinking i've not notice.

dear said i should ignore the latter, so yar I WENT TO WATCH

RAPUNZEL WITH XIALAN AND DINGBIN

it's a very cliche fairy tale, but i love it, yar i love fairy tales. because

they are freaking fairy tales with freaking happily ever afters. it was a short 100mins to feel entirely okay to be naive. Yar, and i cried T.T really like T.T, like two long

rows of tears straight down my cheeks, and i didn't even bother to wipe them off.

i seriously think i have a soft spot for 孔明灯, nothing else can be more romantic than lights floating against the cosmic night. and the chameleon is really mad cute.

2010-11-30T04:13:00.001+08:00

FOOD FOOD FOOOOOD~

2010-11-29T23:17:00.005+08:00

2010-11-28T01:55:00.003+08:00

2010-11-26T14:09:00.000+08:00

im going back to where i was from.

anyway im a popcorn!

the result of heat and stress.

2010-11-22T12:52:00.002+08:00

oh man, i feel odd.

kbye

2010-11-21T23:45:00.003+08:00

2010-11-21T14:51:00.001+08:00

2010-11-20T21:44:00.001+08:00

AHHHH.

listening to Teenage Dream (glee version ) makes me wanna cryyyyy :'<<<<

2010-11-20T01:35:00.003+08:00

2010-11-18T00:15:00.003+08:00

2010-11-17T19:18:00.007+08:00

2010-11-14T16:41:00.001+08:00

for u!

2010-11-12T21:59:00.010+08:00

my day! for u! with love! with faith! :)

lunching with mama! with a cuppa!

i went for a jog and did 50 sit ups!

very proud, so proud! :)

oh look at my sweet perspire!

camwhore after shower! :)

Today's Glee is HILARIOUS, but it brought me to tears :')

2010-11-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

2010-11-11T12:19:00.001+08:00

small things, emotional things can still fuck you up. pretty badly.

2010-11-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

i hope i am a heart broker, and not a broken hearted.

2010-11-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

you feel the world's spinning,

and u've lost ur gravity.

sometimes i really wish im one of those lucky once that dies in a womb.

2010-11-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

2010-11-10T16:12:00.000+08:00

2010-11-10T16:02:00.002+08:00

2010-11-08T13:09:00.003+08:00

2010-11-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

Ahh cannot stand skinny bitches

2010-11-07T09:07:00.001+08:00

2010-11-03T16:54:00.002+08:00

i don't love the tree but i love it's leaves and sticks

i don't love the sea but i love it's corals and reefs

i don't love the birds but i love it's feathers and wings

i love the trees because it's leaves and sticks

i love the sea because it's corals and reefs

i love the birds because it's feathers and wings

and

i love the universe because there's you and me

2010-11-03T11:45:00.003+08:00

i can conquer whatever crap that is ahead of me

work towards to work it out!

2010-11-03T11:45:00.002+08:00

i can conquer whatever crap that is ahead of me

2010-11-03T11:45:00.001+08:00

need to pee.

2010-11-03T09:39:00.001+08:00

Shelfari: Book reviews on your book blog

2010-11-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

ah brainfucked.

2010-11-02T10:31:00.001+08:00

i swore i will grit my teeth and swallow my tongue

because freedom matters and my words are not going to bring it down.

2010-11-01T12:56:00.002+08:00

i learnt to deal with my own decisions.

2010-10-29T15:48:00.002+08:00

2010-10-29T15:29:00.002+08:00

2010-10-22T17:35:00.001+08:00

im leaving again, soon

2010-10-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

i deviate because she did

2010-10-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

2010-10-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

i will learn, and then overcome

i will grow, and then outgrow

2010-10-08T00:20:00.003+08:00

1. Making comparison can spoil your happiness

2. Happiness often comes when least expected

3. Many people see happiness only in their future

4. Sometimes happiness is not knowing the whole story

5. Happiness is a long walk in beautiful, unfamiliar mountains.

6. it's a mistake to think that happiness is the goal

7. Happiness is being with the people you love

8. Happiness is knowing your family lacks for nothing

9. Happiness is doing a job you love

10. Happiness is having a home and a garden of your own

11. It's harder to be happy in a country run by bad people

12. Happiness is feeling useful to others

13. Happiness is to be loved for exactly who you are

14. Happiness comes when you feel truly alive

15. Happiness is knowing how to celebrate

16. Happiness is caring about the happiness of those you love

18 the sun and the sea make everybody happy

there're 5 family of happiness,

exciting happiness

1. joy, celebration, traveling, being in bed with a woman/man, alcohol

2. a job that you love, wanting to attain a goal

calm happiness ( feeling contented and you want it to last)

3. satisfaction with yourself, do not compare

4. certain ways of seeing things, peace within yourself, keep hold of it no matter what happens

5. family and friends, mutual love.

we are slowly smitten by materialism

the more we buy to fill up that empty hole where genuine happiness should be

the bigger the emptiness gets.

2010-10-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

my fake plastic love

2010-10-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing is better than eternal happiness.
A ham sandwich is better than nothing.
Therefore, a ham sandwich is better than eternal happiness.

2010-10-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

i've got plans.

3 weeks later

i am gonna start working at starbucks and

take up guitar classes.

2010-10-03T19:06:00.001+08:00

I want to live,
I want to give
I've been a miner
for a heart of gold.
It's these expressions
I never give
That keep me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
Keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.

2010-10-03T17:32:00.001+08:00

oh yoko oh john

2010-10-02T15:44:00.004+08:00

2010-10-02T02:17:00.001+08:00

" The fact is always obvious much too late, but the most singular difference between happiness and joy is that happiness is a solid and joy a liquid.

— J.D. Salinger, Nine Stories

2010-10-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

I am a dreamer and when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

2010-10-01T19:36:00.002+08:00

a little beer and music blasting loud

is what i need to fill my empty friday night.

okay bye

i think im feeling drunk enough without the beer

nuts enough to go out for a jog.

with headset blasting still.

2010-09-30T00:53:00.001+08:00

2010-09-28T13:35:00.002+08:00

it's a mistake to halt reading,

my mind does not reciprocate the time spent.

what a waste,

what a waste.

2010-09-28T13:06:00.001+08:00

i love mcdonalds

2010-09-27T03:30:00.002+08:00

hii i'm michelle's hunger

'i want a sexy pie

oozing with chocolate

and dip it with it with a hot waffle

i need a foogasm right now'

hii i'm michelle's figure

'oh man, shut up bitch

your lust for food has to stop

before you turn me from lust to dust

foogasm isn't real, but bones, are forever'

hii i'm michelle's insomnia

' -.- , make me sleep

so i can shut that stomach up and dream about sexy waffles dipped with hot chocolate.'

2010-09-22T23:54:00.001+08:00

2010-09-21T07:34:00.001+08:00

ahh i hate mornings.

rise early tired fast.

urgh.

if only mornings are happpy

oh well,

at least i am having my fishtail braid

&#W($)%&*#@

XD

2010-09-21T00:36:00.001+08:00

neilhimself
@amandapalmer I love and miss you my foxy doxy. But you are becoming abstract and hypothetical from distance & time. Roll on Saturday.

awwwww.. *melts