My child arrived just the other day He came to the world in the usual way But there were planes to catch, and bills to pay He learned to walk while I was away And he was talking before I knew it and as he grew He said, "I’m gonna be like you, Dad, You know I’m gonna be like you"
And the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon Little boy blue and the man in the moon When you comin home, dad, I don’t know when, But we'll get together then, Son, You know we'll have a good time then.
My son turned ten just the other day He said "Thanks for the ball, Dad, come on lets play can you teach me to throw?" I said, "Not today, I got a lot to do" He said "Thats okay" And then he walked away but his smile never dimmed And said "I’m gonna be like him, yeah You know I’m going to be like him"
And the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon Little boy blue and the man on the moon When you comin home, dad, I dont know when, But we'll get together then, Son, You know we'll have a good time then.
Well he came from college just the other day So much like a man I just had to say, "Son, I’m proud of you, can you sit for a while?" He shook his head, and he said with a smile
"What I'd really like, Dad, is to borrow the car keys See you later, can I have them please?"
And the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon Little boy blue and the man on the moon When you comin home, Son, I dont know when, But we'll get together then, Dad, You know we'll have a good time then.
I’ve long since retired, my son's moved away I called him up just the other day........ I said "I'd like to see you if you don’t mind" He said "I'd love to Dad, if I could find the time. You see my new jobs a hassle, and the kids have the flu. But It's sure nice talking to you, Dad, It's been sure nice talking to you........" And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me He'd grown up just like me, My boy was just like me..............
And the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon Little boy blue and the man on the moon When you comin home, Son, I dont know when, But we'll get together then, Dad We're gonna have a good time then.
and then all the things you'd consume today just gushed out of your mouth
release you thought
but that isn't enough
you face the sink
and you are not sober
lines of lyrics and phrases from books flash across your mind
and you caught a bit of each of them
then you start to recite all your wills, starting from the recent ones
which its' memory still lingers in your thoughts
sub consciously
you are thinking of it all the time.
then u caught a glimpse of your dog in the corner of the room
you went over and cuddle for comfort
you didn't notice when a smile is raised over your face
but you didnt care
you looked up and walked back to your mac
and thanked God you didn't cut yourself or smash the wall.
someday,
it's all gonna end.
if i admit to bipolar
12:01 AM
i am an amateur, but i will get better
Monday, August 23, 2010,9:23 PM
rocking on the rocking chair
reading for whom the bells tolls
sting is on the radio
with menmeng by my feet
drinking asashi
and my life is about it
8:20 PM
7:45 PM
一个人过久了也就习惯了 i can't always wait for people to make me feel better
Sunday, August 22, 2010,12:55 AM
AHHH DEAR DEAR CAN U PLEASE HELP ME GET THESE
>.<
i wannnnnttt >.<
Friday, August 20, 2010,6:40 PM
when morbid creeps in
6:16 PM
That's why
Maybe I felt provoked because it is the fact
Monday, August 16, 2010,7:28 PM
I want to be rich and I want lots of money I don't care about clever I don't care about funny I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds I heard people die while they are trying to find them
And I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless 'Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror I'm on the right track, yeah I'm on to a winner
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore And when do you think it will all become clear? 'Cuz I'm being taken over by the Fear
Life's about film stars and less about mothers It's all about fast cars and cussing each other But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption And its not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror I'm on the right track, yeah we're on to a winner
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore And when do you think it will all become clear? 'Cuz I'm being taken over by the Fear
Forget about guns and forget ammunition 'Cuz I'm killing them all on my own little mission Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore And when do you think it will all become clear? 'Cuz I'm being taken over by the Fear
Saturday, August 14, 2010,11:44 AM
i strip myself out of those imperfections
and i am naked. left with nothing to take a sympathy
11:24 AM
i need to stop being all these.
from now
neutralize
1:05 AM
Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win
12:39 AM
things come and things goes
there are always things
that are not yours
Monday, August 9, 2010,2:35 AM
2:28 AM
i just finished Shiver,
feeling embarrassed to admit that i enjoyed the old cliche love story between a werewolf and a human.
