i cant say anything without making u feel bad

-> seee im so freee at work :>

i finish reading Emile and Isobel

this is a hard book to chew

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menmeng kept hiding food in the new sofa.

we miss everything that's absent

so don't missss me okayy dearr
i am always here for you:)

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I kept relating myself to the Catcher in Rye which i just finished reading today, the kia was giving up on life even his hasn't started. Lost interested in a busy phony society, keep skipping schools to schools because he can't perform basic grade requirements, but he wasn't dumb or anything, just that nothing interest him. I bet he knows more than any average 16 year olds. Gets sick of seeing phonies and bastards everywhere he goes, when the world around you seems fake, you feel out of place, not an outcast, but just deep inside you feel you don't belong, and you hate everything that you see. The depressing fact is that, you know you have a depressing life, and even though you have all sorts of fantasies to get out of it in million ways, but you never could. Never. Reality doesn't allows you.
it's a pretty spiritually depressing story but conveyed in an light hearted way. it didn't even give me the 3 page warm-up period.
It's a good book, so i will just leave off with some great quotes. so even if you don't read the entire book, you'll gain something.
i don't want you to read too much of my useless/emo blogposts anymore( oh well maybe once in a while), so since you don't read much, i will help you read them and write them down in conclusion and quotes for you, if you find them interesting, then you can look them up yourself:)

"If you do something too good, then, after a while, if you don’t watch it, you start showing off. And then you’re not as good any more keep stopping."

" hese intellectual guys don't like to have an intellectual conversation with you unless they're running the whole thing. They always want you to shut up when they shut up, and go back to your room when they go back to their room."

"What I mean is, lots of time you don't know what interests you most till you start talking about something that doesn't interest you most. I mean you can't help it sometimes. What I think is, you're supposed to leave somebody alone if he's at least being interesting and he's getting all excited about something. I like it when somebody gets excited about something. It's nice."

Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them — if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.





P.S i didn't know what to do, i guess everyone has their time being depressed and all that, but when you see one and yet you can't comfort him with a hug or say anything useful, that feeling sucks. sucks mighty balls. i even have those flash by thoughts of hoping you will find a substitute girl and fill up the loneliness. i hope she can blabber about your ear all day and night so you won't feel any pinch of loneliness.

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this is the first time where
stress overpowered and
i am weeping
uncontrollably for the past hour
and yet, nothing stops
so tears drenched my keyboard
but my fingers do not pause
i don't know what might makes me feel better
then i thought of you
fondly
but was rejected
coldly

no one understands this
not you and you or you
if you do, you'll have helped

this phase
is a lonesome battle
i want to beg for mercy
but pride told me not
so die in glory
combuste in flames

-the end

i am paranoid again, plus slightly depressed
i don't really know what to say to her
i feel very out of words
generally i hate breakups
i hate
i fear
i will rather die than to go through all this
sometimes i fear it so much i rather never to touch it
hearts break
and they takes months/years to fix
and even when they do
you can still see the scars
and on some nights they will start to ache
and the pain haunts you

Hi, the truth is always a pain in the arse, and the truth, needs courage to explore.

'I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do

I wanna grow old with you'

worst morning ever.

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TGIF! tonight will be a rest for my body mind and soul!

hi

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songs and melodies

i almost feel i don't understand myself anymore.

let's talk about exhaustion

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hii

there is hate in me