sad reality

And darling, darling stand by me.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009,12:02 AM

new creatons!

Michelle has some great ideas about business!
Let's talk and plan,
and then create!

can't wait.

Sunday, June 28, 2009,1:15 AM

Gone Too Soon

Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Wednesday, June 24, 2009,10:10 PM

I can't promise you perfection, but I'll try.

Michelle wants to apologize to all her dreams, her hopes, her resources, her opportunities. Feeling sincerely sorry for letting them slipped away in front of her own eyes. Stuffs like this might be rare and valuable someday, but today Michelle is sitting here doing nothing.

Sloth is in all of us in some way, but you can't let them in too deep. Like me, they goes an inch deeper everyday. Maybe by the end of another 10 days, I need to end up in a motivation rehab, to be cured.

Few weeks, or even months ago, i came across this Facebook Group, called " I don't sleep enough because I stay up late for no reason", and I thought, how interesting, how ME! Thus i joined the group, and left it there, forgotten until just now. They have over a million fans, and I wonder.
Among them are there doctors? lawyers? Politicians? Scientists? Or even designers? Because, even though everyone is saying that designers and artists are intuitive creatures, can't work without inspiration, or the spiritual elements. But I'd seen inclined artists and designers having a solid daily routine! In fact, most of them have a pretty organized life and working habits!
And a bunches of us still sitting here, like some seriously obese patients thinking that we'll climb the faster than some extreme well built athletes. Stop dreaming, we ain't gonna be top in the social hierarchy, like this. NO PAIN NO GAIN, remember, if you don't feel the pain nothing is gained. Settling down to study is a pinch, and if you can't take that, you can take nothing, because it's all in the mind, it's nothing to do with passion or interest. IT'S ALL HOW U THINK IT IS.

I dunno how many such people are in my social circle, but I do bet it's more than 2 hands can count. It's nothing to be ashamed of, we just need to admit it, realize it, and change it. If u had already admitted it, it's the first step, then you need to realize it which might take u little more time to figure out your own working structure. BUT PLEASE DON'T ADMITTED IT AND CONTINUE BEING SLOTHFUL, IT'S THE STUPIDEST THING A MAN CAN DO. ALL YOU NEED IS EXTRA EFFORT TO GET TO THE 2ND AND 3RD STEP. It might take time, but trust me the reward is rewarding and your future is weighing on it. SO PLEASE, do this for yourself and your loved ones, because your condition will pull them down. Imagine your existence will sure affect and influence them in some ways right? So either it be good or bad, up or down. If u are going down yourself, you surely can't pull your love ones up. So yes, by that time, it's not one only a matter of personal self motivation, it's also responsibility for you and the people around you.

I wrote this because I love and I care and I am responsible, and I realized that I need to pull you up.
Michelle is ready for the pain, but are you?

Monday, June 22, 2009,2:18 AM

不想睡

不想把每件事情都那么严格
弄的全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不在看它能开多久
放宽了心情把什么都变美了

M wants breakfast delivered.
McDonalds breakfast.
best to be taken in front of the TV set.
it's 2 mins to 5am, and it'll be way pass 5 after i complete this entry.

playing Restaurant City on Facebook,
and amazed by the number of the people still awake
'cause me myself is finally starting to yawn.

M is still not completing her white tiger yet
argggh
wants to clear her to-do list before her birthday.
speaking of birthday. 2nd of July
Mama wants to plan a BBQ on 4th July (Saturday) for me
she started inviting friends when she is yet to book the BBQ pit
how cuteeeee.
heeeeee, i wanna dress Menmeng up in some super weird outfit and parade him in the park. Telling all my friends:
Hey this is my dog.
:) :) :)

Menmeng is getting more handsome and prettier by second
an adorable fur ball.
XD

Monday, June 15, 2009,3:18 AM

Michelle is hating her sleeping habits.

Yeah, it doesn't seems right.

She is seeing only 4 hours of daylight everyday lately.

argggh.

Thursday, June 11, 2009,12:46 AM

ARGGGHH
studio lighting!

lights in all directions.

Monday, June 8, 2009,1:22 AM

LA INK

XIU!

MICHELLE!
is watching LA ink.
thinking why people around me are against tattoos.
HMMMM.
XIU let's go get one tgt!!!

Saturday, June 6, 2009,3:46 AM

HE LOOK LIKE MY PUPPPPPPY!!
i swear!
even though he cover the eyes, the nose,
and the mouth.

Friday, June 5, 2009,2:58 AM

done!

12:28 AM

HELP

deprived of sleep and typo ideas.
M is utterly depressed.
Another mural design is pending for mailing TODAY
yet to start

who will make me feel better?
No, not u darling.

cheers,
it's 12.43a.m

Thursday, June 4, 2009,9:17 PM

M see through another inch of you.

another pinch from you.

5:17 AM

Just sometimes.
when hate is clear.

once bitten, twice shy.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009,10:26 PM

angel

YOU LOOKALIKA AN ANGEL

Tuesday, June 2, 2009,10:12 PM

consumed by exhaustion.
the only comfort i get is from my illustration.
it's telling me, " it's worth the while!"

(:

wowed by imaginary friend studio today
and once again,
Michelle vows to IMPROVE!!

despite my
blood shot eyes.

6:50 AM

morning sunshine!!!

i didn't catch any sleep last night!
YAWN.
All i hope is to end the day early with an 8 hours of sleep.

hoping Friday to come a little quicker.
can't stand the exhaustion.
guess, it'll last till i drop.
and hope all assignments and stuffs will end on Friday too.
SO I CAN ENJOY 3 WEEKS OF HOLIDAY
the thought of it makes me so HAPPPPPPPYYYY!!

4:28 AM

M is dying dying dying dying.
from learning to draw like Vania Zouravliov.

YEAH,
dying dying dying dying dying.
feel so retarded from dotting.

CHEERS

since she vowed to improve.

Monday, June 1, 2009,12:33 AM

M feels utterly guilty for how she spent the weekends.
SHE HAVEN'T START TAIPANG'S DRAFT YET.

ARGGGH.